It has been a while since I last released music as I feel I kind of felt out of love with it for a while. I guess I got a bit disillusioned and felt maybe my music wasn't good enough and nobody listened anyway so I felt discouraged to release my songs.
But over time I have come to embrace the idea that if you feel you want to communicate something, then it doesn't matter whether your audience is millions or just one (your mum). I liked this song when I wrote it so I decided to get it out into the world. If anybody listens to it and relates, even just one person besides my mum, than that's enough for me I guess.
This song is called 'Land of Broken Toys' and is a reflection of my craving in high school to be accepted by the popular clique at school and feeling like only the 'misfits' or 'broken toys' liked me. I spent many Friday nights at home with mum and dad watching photos of everybody going to the party and that was a lonely experience that I don't think I will ever really forget.
If you can relate, I am really sorry. But I hope it shows you how common this feeling is and makes you feel less alone. Thank you for reading this and I hope you draw comfort from this song. I would love to hear your experiences and what has helped you cope in growing up and feeling left out.
Much love, Nat xxx
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