Dear ED,

Can you help me? I want to lose weight the same way I did when I was a good anorexic. God do I miss being anorexic especially the honeymoon phase. The honeymoon phase that lasted from 2008 to early 2011. I used to have a decent metabolism but now it has gone to shit. I can still lose weight but it’s harder than it used to be.

I’m reading up on diet advice, browsing forums, and watching diet advice videos to help get to the root cause of why I comfort eat and I think I found it. I sometimes eat out of boredom or because I feel empty. My intuition keeps telling me that good things are to come and that I will lose the weight eventually. I don’t know how to explain but it’s just this feeling I have in my gut.

I can’t bring myself to be angry at you because honestly, you’ve helped me and been more like a friend to me for nearly 13 years. I know I used to get angry at you but I want you to know that I’m not angry at you anymore. You’ve served your purpose and you’ve served it well. You were more of a friend to me than TM or C was. You didn’t flake out on me. You sometimes revealed truths about me that I didn’t want to hear but you offered doable solutions, too.

I want to thank you for being my friend. One of my only friends and for being there for me through thick and thin. I honestly don’t know what I would do without you. I could have never finished high school without you and I never could have gotten through late 2013/early 2014 without you. You have always been there for me and I can’t thank you enough for being so loyal.

Please continue to stand by my side as I go through life because I think you and I can accomplish great things together.

Sincerely,

Hippo-Hips