Dear Anorexia,

This is a letter to you... You grabbed hold of me when you knew I was the most vulnerable, you knew I wasn’t able to fight back. I can’t look at myself without pure disgust, to powerless to fight back. You’ve been successful in keeping me a prisoner in my own body for 10 years now!

You have separated me from life, my family and friends. You are a ruthless killer!!! You’ve left no place to hide. You’ve stolen my identity from me, “Who I’m i? I don’t know anymore” you want me dead, but here I am still fighting the endless deamons, every day... you are the dangerous monster that lives my head and I hate you.

You’ve taken me away from my friends and family! You’ve taken away my childhood, a little girl who was only 12 years old... I will never get that back. You told me I was in control ( I wasn’t), I’m exhausted, but you still carry on.

You are holding me back... I hate you for that! You hurt me over and over again! You make me cry myself to sleep every night! I do everything possible not to be In this darkness.. I’m fighting you l...

However the harder I try, the more exhausted i get. I hate how you became my master, I was your puppet and you were my ruthless puppeteer! I want you to hate yourself, with no hope of things getting better! And believe me that will happen...

Saddia