Dear Anorexia

It was you. You killed my daughter. You lied to her and she believed you and if it wasn't for you, she would be here today with me.

But I can't blame you. That is your purpose, you just were very good at it. I was not good enough.

If I had been a better mother would she have seen that you were a liar and a bitch intent on killing her?

If I hadn't yelled at her for breaking that china in the shop would she have hated herself less?

If I had paid more attention would she not have turned to you for love and comfort?

If I had been stricter could I have forced her to eat?

If I had been less strict would she not have felt the need to rebel?

If I had been a good mother would she be alive today? Would we be celebrating her birthday with cake rather than flowers at her grave

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you Anorexia,

Sincerely,

A crushed and broken mother